June 20, 2008

Confessions of a recent blog addict

That's what I've become. A reader of Blogs. Mainly this one : http://krishashok.wordpress.com
Hilariously funny blogs by this English punt :D is an excellent way to pass time in office [If you're doing anything as boring as I am - pathing out images in Photoshop *_* this is the only way out!]

There are some excellent blogs all around, which make me feel (sheepishly) silly as I have happily been ignoring my own. Ha! If I had the will power of an ant I could do a better job of posting interesting things. But since I don't :D you can be happy with this.

Below are some pics from my visit to the Aviva Badminton Open 2008 held here in Singapore last week. I'm not an avid fan of any watching any sport, I prefer playing really. Its fun screaming at the Television but it's better to go out there and "Just do it" ;)

This was a strange day for me. I was watching this game on TV just before I left to go to the stadium. Must say, watching the game live is much more fun than on the TV. The intense atmosphere of the cheering crowds and the game itself, it was most excitiment I've had in days!

There was this mixed doubles game between Denmark and Indonesia, Whatte game I say! I finally understand why people pay good money to go to the stadiums and rather than watching on TV :) Although watching cricket with my family is a ritual when I am home. When my grandfather was alive it used to be my father, him and me yelling away at the TV while the cricket matches were on. I don't think it was just the game, but more than that, the "bonding" while watching the game that I always enjoyed.

But there is one sport that makes me wonder how people enjoy it at all? Golf. Seriously? It's just a guy putting a tiny ball into holes in the grass!! How much fun can that be? Yeah I know it probably insults every golfer's skills as I say this, but please, Golf is no where nearly as fun as Basketball (which happens to be my favourite) or even Cricket (test cricket is more fun than golf! ). Oh well maybe that's just my opinion.

Oh and here's a couple of doodles ( hehe.. I like the sound of that word :P ) that I doodled while I should have been photoshopping.

Its just this character I had in my mind. Okay so he happens to look a bit like my boyfriend :D
His birthday happens to be arriving soon, so I'm hoping I can make something interesting. Watch this space for more :)

June 15, 2008

Colour me crazy

What do you do when everything you want is against you? Its like that Allanis Morisette song, Ironic..thats what my life feels like. I started this blog to vent out my thoughts, not to anyone in particular. This is my online pensieve just like Dumbledore had his. Turns out that thoughts can be dangerous even when you don't intend it for anyone. Who'd have thunk it?

Anyway..If you are henceforth reading my blog and get offended by it..my apologies in advance. Your problems in life might be bigger, more serious. But the point is they are yours. If I wanna vent.i will VENT!! So live with it. Speaking of which, here's a picture i drew..I call it "feeling blue"..

Other than painting my feelings ..this is wat I do best when I'm sad.. I cry..then I eat chocolate cry some more..then finally fall asleep..How do you vent your frustrations? A friend suggested punching the pillow. I tried it, but denting my pillow didn't quite rid me of all the tension. Screaming into the pillow..now that's a better way the only disadvantage being you might damage you vocal chords. Some people get drunk, some just punch walls. OUCH.

I read somewhere that dressing yourself up is therapy for feeling better. Is that why we shop for so much when we are depressed? I read in a magazine once that wearing yellow is supposed to put you into a better mood. Does it really? By that logic, looking at white should bring you peace? Colour association with mood has always been fascinating to me.

http://www.jacksonpollock.org/..this site is awesome..you should totally try it if you're bored or want something to distract you. Left clicking helps change the colour and space bar is to clear the screen.

Well I better go stare at something yellow then. Or maybe green. Until then Toodles!

June 02, 2008

Inner workings

So lately I've been going through a really hard time with my "love" life..(lets not go there)..but what has actually been a hard and painful thing has become an eye-opener for me. I am somewhat more aware of the world i'm actually living in. It all started with a bad argument..which got me thinking about everthing in my life right now. What have I done in the past one year or the past 1 month for that matter, which I can look back on and be happy about?

For the past 3 years my life has been about someone else. I stopped worrying about my health, my looks, the world around me, it has been about one person and all that I felt when I was with that person. Its scary how easily I let myself be so involved in something and that I didn't see the "realities" of anything else in my life.

Lately, I've started to read the world news more often (I dont have acess to a newspaper but I manage to update myself on news online). Its really mundane actually, its just news, but for me, its a breakthrough. I've actually "looked" beyond my own crap! So in the spirit of looking beyond...I was watching this documentary on tv today, called "Supersize Me".

Its all about the fast food diets that the people today live on. This film is really an eye opener for me. Although I'm not obese, I've struggled with wieght issues since I was 10. Like most Indian households, I am always compared to other cousins who are thinner. I admit it hurts, but the more it happened, the more I learned to be thickskinned about it. But today its dawned on me. Its not about thin. Its about being healthy really. I've lived 21 years on this planet, and hope to live atleast 60 years more. Thats 60 x 365 = 21,900 days atleast!! I've realised its just not enough, what I've been doing lately.

I've been obsessing over some parts of my life and let them get so big that I've forgotten what I can do as a person. I dont want to go through life wearing a blinder of mundane stuff like work/money/family. Yeah all that's important, but its not ALL we exist on this planet for right? I mean..there are issues like global warming, natural disasters, wars, obesity..there's so much happening, but all we focus on is our own idiosyncrasies. Shouldn't we all be more than mere robots, doing the same stuff we do always? I know its hard to do different things all the time, but as a designer I find things stifling me really easily. So to get out of my boring routine, I've decided to do a few things differently in my daily life atleast. It may be insignificant to the world, but atleast to me, its "something".
1)Caring a lot more about my health and well being :)
2)Switching off all the light/socket switches everyday before i leave for work (don't know if it will solve global warming, but it will certainly not help speed it up.)
3) Read more (why did I ever stop?!!!)
4) Keep my eyes open. (Look, and not just see things)

I know may sound over enthusiastic right now, but hey, life's too short. Gotta keep doing something new. Why get stuck in a rut right?